Mistakes

Dear Reader,

I know it's hard to let go. You talk all day, everyday actually. You fall asleep on the phone together. You wake up with a smile in your face because of the morning texts that really lightens up your day. You think about then when you're asleep, you dream about them. You spend time with them in Skype dates or even in real dates that really makes you happy. Actually, you're happy whether it's just the internet or in real life. They soon become a part of you. They soon become a habit everyday that makes you happy and you get used to it. Then all of a sudden, they leave. And permanently, they're gone in your life. Just like that. That means no more late night phone calls, no more Skype dates, no more cute messages when you're in a bad mood (actually no texts at all) or if they text you will feel no emotion. The first few days you just want to really really really texts them the 3 words that everyone wants to hear: "I miss you" in every way. You will want to tweet them, message them on Facebook, call them and especially text them really do everything to restore what's "normal" between you two. But as much as you want to try and to restore it, things don't change.  The hardest part is to let go. You always check your phone and every time it rings or vibrates your heart hopefully wants them to text, you check their Twitter or Facebook accounts if they're talking about you on how they "miss you" or if they have someone new. This person that was once your everything is now just a memory. A painful memory that just replay and replay in your head. You spend nights reminiscing everything that you guys did. The sweet texts, the romantic morning and evening texts, the Skype dates, the shared laughs, the hugs and especially the kisses, all the good things that went on during the time when you two were together. You will spend days, weeks or even months or maybe years. Remember that this was just a fragment of time, a memory that will someday fade and I think that the only reason people hold onto memories so tight is because memories are the only things that don't change; when everybody else does. Your friends, family and God may help but the only thing that can heal a broken heart is time.

But in order to move on and get over it, you have to be able to tell yourself that they're not worth it, and you deserve better, and you'll find someone new. The best feeling comes when you realize you’re perfectly happy without the people you thought you needed the most. It's because hardly, you can't live in the past because life doesn't work that way, life is meant to be traveled forward not backward.  Yes the memories hurt but the memories makes you strong everyday. It's their fault because they missed out on true love. I hope that this is a lesson for them to realize that everyone makes mistakes but their biggest one is losing you.

Love,
El