Friday, June 13, 2014

Realizations of A Blind Man

 You can't make her happy like before and it's killing you like poison even if you're happy with her. It's hard to make someone happy when they think that you'll screw up  again but it's harder to feel that she is not like before. 

You screwed up. Restoring what is normal is like giving a blind man hope that he will see a rainbow again. I know you love her with everything you've got but ask yourself, does she love you like before? Did she change because she loves you or did she change because she's protecting herself from you? 

You screwed up. And I know that you are sorry for what you did. But can she see that? Can she forgive you with full extent and without add ons? Can she love you like before?

You can fix this. Even if she suspect things from you and even if she brings up the past, always remind yourself that you love the old her and you will wait for the old her to come back even if she doesn't. 


Wednesday, June 11, 2014

She

It was a surprise. I talked to her about the things I do everyday, the things I’ve been thinking and the things I want to do with my life. She was a serendipity and she was the best surprise ever. 

I fell in love with you. I didn’t expect that ever. I said that I won’t fall in love with you but I guess I did and I am currently in the deepest part, still falling. I love you if you think that I don’t sometimes. Even if you don’t feel it sometimes, it’s there. Just ask me and I’ll respond with love. 

I am currently writing this while waiting for you. But I am really glad that you are part of my life. If we don’t have the luxury of time or place, then we will find a way. I will make time and I will never stop finding time for you. You are the one thing that a lot of people are searching for. 

And I am glad that you are mine,

El

Thursday, March 20, 2014

How I Met Your Mother

Kids, this is the story of how I met your mother.

Back in my time, I had an idea that love was fallacy. It's not real and it was for losers. But everything that I believed in was changed when I met your mother.

Kids, the Universe will stop you into going to a deep hole that would make your life miserable. The Universe has its ways in the world and I can't begin to explain on how it constantly moves. But what I know is that it's never wrong, never late, and always at the right place.


 It was a sunny day when I stepped out of the old apartment. I was craving  to eat at this local restaurant down 7th avenue but I turned left instead of going straight because I remembered that the old restaurant is close every Sunday and kids, up until now the old restaurant is still open. Anyways, I turned left because there was a hotdog stand near the flower shop. I was hungry and I needed a snack. After eating the hotdog, I came across this garage sale. The owner of the garage sale was a WWII veteran. He told me his war stories in Warsaw. He said that he fell in love with the city even though it was destroyed by Germany. "Even though everything is in ruins, beauty is seen" he said to me.  I saw an old picture of his regiment, an old picture of him and tanks, and a letter of his father to him when he was in Europe.

I checked out the things for sale in his garage sale. An old calendar, baseball cards and clocks were seen throughout the place. After checking out everything, I stumbled upon a WWII Zippo lighter for sale and surprisingly it doesnt have damage and still intact. I asked the wonderful old man how much is it but he gave it to me for free for being an awesome listener.

I parted ways with the old man and settled down to a coffee shop near his place. I entered the coffee shop and there she was, I saw her sitting down waiting for her coffee while holding a cigarette. Kids, I know that smoking is bad for your health but with coffee, you would think otherwise. Anyways, I saw her there as I was in line. Usually people wouldn't like long lines to get their order but that day when I saw your mother for the very first time, I could just stand there and just look at her sitting down with her unlit cigarette in her hand.

As the barista walked towards her to give her the coffee she ordered I started to panic because I thought she was leaving so I just ordered a bottled water and told the cashier to hurry. When the barista gave her the drink, she stood up and walked towards the smoking area. She checked her left and right pockets for a lighter. I walked towards her with the zippo that the old man gave me then I touched her left shoulder. As she turned around I smiled. When she looked at me, I knew that day that I will spend every waking moment with her.

Now kids, why is the little details important in the story? Because everything is connected. If I walked straight towards the old restaurant instead of going left, then the timing wouldn't be right.  There are millions of coffee shops in the city and if I haven't met the old man, I wouldn't be in that coffee shop and I've never met your mother. But instead, The Universe worked its mysterious ways and made everything right.

 That day when I stepped out of the apartment  I never knew that my life would change forever. Maybe one day that will happen to you too but let's not think about it. Because it will happen at a day when you least expect it.  Because maybe life isn't clear or maybe it's in ruins but, beauty is always seen.

And kids, that is the story of how I met your mother.

Sunday, March 2, 2014

Don't Take Her For Granted

She is perfect for you. She'll always be there for you to be your number one fan. She'll always be your source of inspiration and motivation, she'll always be the one that you can always call when you're feeling lonely. For the million lovely things that she had done for you, why are you taking her for granted?

Start treating her right and show her off. Always look at her like Flynn looks at Rapunzel. Hold her hand and kiss her in front of your friends. Be glad that you have her in your life because the littlest things you do mean to her a lot.

Love her with all your heart. Bury your heart to her and she will grow roses above it. She is different from all the girls you've met. You are lucky to have her because she controls you with her inner angel and tolerates your outer demons. You are lucky to hug her and kiss her every time you want. You have the secret to love, every time you hug her. Isn't it funny that the greatest secrets are hidden in unlikely places?

Treat her right. She is beautiful and angelic. A lot of guys want her and you should be aware of that. You have what they pray for at night: a diamond in the rough that you take for granted. It's time to love her with all your soul, it's time to treat her with love in the spaces that you have missed. Always make her feel loved, and you will never see her frown.

Imagine this: One day, you'll see her down the streets happy while holding another guy's hand. You'll see her treating him with the things she did to you before. She won't even notice you while you're staring at her because she's busy laughing with the jokes he makes. It will break your heart seeing her with him not because you aren't happy for her but because you were blind when she was happy with you. Seeing everything will make you realize that you are not the reason why she's happy anymore. And it will finally hit you like a truck that you need her more than she needs you; that it's her, it's always her.


Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Dear Future Girlfriend: Valentines

Dear Future Girlfriend,

February 14 is coming up. If only I can send you roses through a wormhole to the future. A lot of guys are preparing for Valentine's Day and somehow I tend to observe them. They buy roses, chocolates and other romantic stuff to give their girlfriends. I realized something and it's that a real man shouldn't just wait for one day of the year to show how much he loves his girl but he should always show it everyday to her that he loves her.

I can't wait to meet you. I wouldn't just shower you with chocolates and flowers, anyone can buy chocolates and anyone can buy flowers but love are those little things that I'll show you everyday someday. It's the little things that builds up real love. I'm not saying that big romantic gestures doesn't count but the little things count the most. Love is when you go out your way for someone to be happy and when they're happy, you'll sense a feeling of contentment and happiness.
I hope that all of these, I can do to you and with all patience, I will give everything that I've got to make you happy.

Wait a little longer if you're feeling lonely. When we meet one day, I will fill those gaps with the love that you deserve and with full extent, my love will reach your soul so that you will never feel lonely and you will feel loved.

There are 365 days in a year and I'm willing to make you happy every single day. I am willing to show you that everyday is Valentine's Day.

You are the reason why I wake up in the morning,
El

Thursday, January 30, 2014

Secrets and Walls


Her heart was mysterious

It's covered with secrets and love
She hides it beneath the walls
And keeps it out on the rays of the sun

Even on the walls she built around her
My love for her grows everyday
Growing rapidly; fully of care and love
Hope that she can see it one day

She smiles as the walls erode
Brick by brick, I smashed the pieces
Destroying them with will and haste
And her heart is renewed and full of grace

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Backpacks and Passports





I encourage everyone to travel. Maybe inside the country or even international. It doesn't matter. Grab your backpacks, passports  and an amount of money. Visit the romantic city of Paris, check out the mysterious temples in Malaysia and Cambodia, experience the sunset and sunrise in Greece, and  run in the beaches of Miami. There are a lot of things you can do in this world and I can't describe how it feels and how you can experience it one by one but I know that when you travel, you will fall in love. You will fall in love with places that you will see, with the people that you will meet, and the food that you will grasp. You will get this fascination with the different cultures, food and people. You will fall in love. The kind of love that grows in you that makes you a better human being. You will learn the things that schools and magazines only utter in words and pictures. You will see the difference between  how the media presents the places that you had seen and how you had seen it with your own eyes. You will trust a lot of people that are unknown to you and I know it's terrifying. But the journeys in this world isn't counted by the destination, but the people you meet along the way.  Life is short but always make sure that your experiences are bigger than life. You will get lost a lot in cities and streets but you will always leave a trail. A trail that your heart leaves every time you step from left to right. You will have an adventure that is worth writing every time you step out in every door.

And when you get back in your own house while you lay down in your bed while you're in your own room, you will see things differently.